Thursday, December 8, 2011
Mama is Hospitalised Again / 妈妈又住院了
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
三月的检查 / March Check Up
再次感谢各路神仙对我们的保佑!
Mama was hospitalised again recently. One reason was that her heart always had irregular heart beating since last autumn. Secondly, it was about time to have her complete check-up. On the 19th of March, the results were out. Her doctors were quite happy with her results. They unanimously thought her tumour looked more or less stabilised. As for her heart, it might have been affected by many reasons, for example, mood, season etc. It was consistent with the answer I got from Guanyin. I went to the temple twice when she was unwell and asked Buddha about her health. The first time was last December. Buddha said "Bing An"; the second time was this January, Buddha answered "Bing Xi". Both literally meant her illness wouldn’t be a big problem. Amazing, no wonder she is a Buddha, without a CT scanning, she knows everything! I’ll put in more effort in finishing my cross stitch of that Guanyin portrait to show my great respect to her.
Once again, we’d like to express our thankfulness to Guanyin, Huatuo - God of Medicine, and all other Gods.
On the 25th Mar, the result of the 24 hours of heart monitoring came out. She has both atrial and ventricular fibrillation. That’s why she always feels so miserable. Doctor Mu said it’s still related to her tumour. It looks like the Tarceva is not enough to curb her disease. Her white blood cell level was just over 2000, which is not enough to do chemotherapy. Her heart would also not be able to take it. We can only hope that next month after switching to Iressa, her condition will become stable so that we can try another round of chemotherapy. God bless us.
Mama was hospitalised again recently. One reason was that her heart always had irregular heart beating since last autumn. Secondly, it was about time to have her complete check-up. On the 19th of March, the results were out. Her doctors were quite happy with her results. They unanimously thought her tumour looked more or less stabilised. As for her heart, it might have been affected by many reasons, for example, mood, season etc. It was consistent with the answer I got from Guanyin. I went to the temple twice when she was unwell and asked Buddha about her health. The first time was last December. Buddha said "Bing An"; the second time was this January, Buddha answered "Bing Xi". Both literally meant her illness wouldn’t be a big problem. Amazing, no wonder she is a Buddha, without a CT scanning, she knows everything! I’ll put in more effort in finishing my cross stitch of that Guanyin portrait to show my great respect to her.
Once again, we’d like to express our thankfulness to Guanyin, Huatuo - God of Medicine, and all other Gods.
On the 25th Mar, the result of the 24 hours of heart monitoring came out. She has both atrial and ventricular fibrillation. That’s why she always feels so miserable. Doctor Mu said it’s still related to her tumour. It looks like the Tarceva is not enough to curb her disease. Her white blood cell level was just over 2000, which is not enough to do chemotherapy. Her heart would also not be able to take it. We can only hope that next month after switching to Iressa, her condition will become stable so that we can try another round of chemotherapy. God bless us.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Three Years / 三周年
感谢大慈大悲的观世音菩萨及众神和药神华佗。
This Nov 20 marked three years since Mama’s so called ‘operation’. Although nothing severe happened during this third year, the last few days turned out to be very frightening for us. She developed an irregular heart beat again, even though we had changed her medication to Tarceva. We were now feeling very discouraged. Was mama now becoming resistant to all the medications previously know to have helped? As again we felt hopeless, I went to the Guanyin Temple to pray for her. Believe it or not, She again answered us. After I came back, mama had only one further episode of irregular heart beat. Thanks to Guanyin, Huatuo, and all of the other Gods.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Mama's Dream / 妈妈的梦
1。 有一天,妈妈告诉我说她梦到她回到了家乡,跟外婆(已去世)在一起。她说:“在梦里,我感到外婆好像不行了。”“为什么?”“我告诉她我要回天津去的时候,她哭了,她说你再多住一天吧,明天我去送你。”“那你是怎么回答的?”“我说不行,我要赶回去。”“即使她都哭了你也还说要赶回去么?”“嗯,因为我还以为我要上班,而且在梦里我糊里糊涂地觉得你们还小,需要人照顾,你爸爸一个人也不行。”也许这个梦暗示她还没有到离开我们的时候?
2。 还有一次,她说梦到她和她的全家(既外祖母,阿姨们,舅舅们什么的)一起要去上海,那看起来应该是一次很愉快的旅行,他们聚集在码头上,船就要开了,大家都催促她快些上船,这时她忽然感到犹豫,她说是因为突然她想起了远在天津的丈夫,觉得不该把他一个人孤零零地留在家里,自己去玩。正在她犹豫的时候,船开走了;过了一会儿她决定要随她的母亲去上海,去询问下一班船什么开,工作人员告诉她刚刚开走的是最后一班船,叫她明天再来。冥冥中暗示她又一次与死神擦肩而过?
3。前几天,她忽然梦见家里有很多煤,她想我要这东西没用啊,家里是烧暖气,不是烧炉子的,煤根本派不上用场啊,要怎么办呢?她想起了一位年迈的远房亲戚,她家还用炉子,“我拿去给她吧,免得浪费。”一边想着一边背起所有的煤朝她家的方向走去,到她家后帮她一点点码起来。。。这不久后便住院了,旁边是一位奄奄一息的老妇人。。。巧合么?
Mama had some really strange dreams after she fell ill. Some are really hard to explain. Now I’d like to share them with you.
1. One day, she said she had a dream. In the dream, she saw herself go back to her hometown to visit my grandma (who had already passed away). She said to me,"In my dream, I felt your grandma’s days might be numbered."
"How did you know?"
"Because when I told her I'll leave for Tianjin, she cried. She had never cried before. She said,'today please stay. Tomorrow I'll see you off.'"
"How did you answer her?"
"I told her I can't."
"Even though she cried, you still didn't accept her request?"
"Because in my dream, I thought I still needed to work and two of you were still too young. Your father could not manage it alone."
Maybe this dream implied that her time was not up yet?
2. Her other dream was about traveling with her family (her mother, sisters and brothers etc. Most of them had passed away.) to Shanghai. It looked like a merry event. They were gathering on the pier. The boat was about to leave. They hurried her on board. At this moment, she hesitated. What came to her mind was her husband being faraway. She felt that she should not leave him alone at home and she should enjoy herself. While she was thinking, the boat left. After a while she decided to join her mother. She went to enquire about when the next boat would be arriving. She was told that just now the boat was the last ferry and they told her to come back the following day. Again, this implied to her that she had just rubbed her shoulders with the God of Death?
3. A few days ago, she had a dream related to coal (which shares the same pronunciation with the word "unlucky" in Chinese). She was thinking what on earth would I need that for? We had the central heating system to keep us warm and we didn’t even have a stove. Coal was something totally useless. What should I do with that? She thought of her distant relative, an elderly lady who was not rich and still using a stove. "I should bring it to her, otherwise it will be wasted." She carried all the coal and walked towards her house and neatly piled it up for her. Not long after that, she was hospitalized. Her roommate was an elderly woman who had been diagnosed with a brain tumor and she was about to…..Such a coincidence?
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
九月的检查 / Sep's Check Up
Mama has been hospitalized since this Monday. The main purpose was to have a complete check up and have another round of pamidronate disodium treatment, injection of thymosin α1 to improve her immune system. Now the results are out and basically encouraging. Her white blood cell level, 3900, was still a bit lower than required (normal value should be above 4000), her blood calcium level was 2.04 (normal should be above 2.15), one of her cancer index dropped from 48 to 38.5 (normal should be below 35), the other increased from 1100+ to 1300+. The rest like liver, kidney and spleen etc, were all normal. From her CT scan, doctors said it looked like her condition was already getting stabilized. "This result shows it’s quite possible that she may survive beyond 5 years" The chief said. Father was so much encouraged. He couldn’t help sharing the news with others. But mama was very unhappy. Anyway, she doesn't fully know about her conditions.