Mama's Dream / 妈妈的梦

妈妈在病中作过一系列的梦，有的梦十分蹊跷，我现在讲出来与大家分享：
1。 有一天，妈妈告诉我说她梦到她回到了家乡，跟外婆（已去世）在一起。她说：“在梦里，我感到外婆好像不行了。”“为什么？”“我告诉她我要回天津去的时候，她哭了，她说你再多住一天吧，明天我去送你。”“那你是怎么回答的？”“我说不行，我要赶回去。”“即使她都哭了你也还说要赶回去么?”“嗯，因为我还以为我要上班，而且在梦里我糊里糊涂地觉得你们还小，需要人照顾，你爸爸一个人也不行。”也许这个梦暗示她还没有到离开我们的时候？

2。 还有一次，她说梦到她和她的全家（既外祖母，阿姨们，舅舅们什么的）一起要去上海，那看起来应该是一次很愉快的旅行，他们聚集在码头上，船就要开了，大家都催促她快些上船，这时她忽然感到犹豫，她说是因为突然她想起了远在天津的丈夫，觉得不该把他一个人孤零零地留在家里，自己去玩。正在她犹豫的时候，船开走了；过了一会儿她决定要随她的母亲去上海，去询问下一班船什么开，工作人员告诉她刚刚开走的是最后一班船，叫她明天再来。冥冥中暗示她又一次与死神擦肩而过？

3。前几天，她忽然梦见家里有很多煤，她想我要这东西没用啊，家里是烧暖气，不是烧炉子的，煤根本派不上用场啊，要怎么办呢？她想起了一位年迈的远房亲戚，她家还用炉子，“我拿去给她吧，免得浪费。”一边想着一边背起所有的煤朝她家的方向走去，到她家后帮她一点点码起来。。。这不久后便住院了，旁边是一位奄奄一息的老妇人。。。巧合么？

Mama had some really strange dreams after she fell ill. Some are really hard to explain. Now I’d like to share them with you.

1. One day, she said she had a dream. In the dream, she saw herself go back to her hometown to visit my grandma (who had already passed away). She said to me,"In my dream, I felt your grandma’s days might be numbered."
"How did you know?"
"Because when I told her I'll leave for Tianjin, she cried. She had never cried before. She said,'today please stay. Tomorrow I'll see you off.'"
"How did you answer her?"
"I told her I can't."
"Even though she cried, you still didn't accept her request?"
"Because in my dream, I thought I still needed to work and two of you were still too young. Your father could not manage it alone."
Maybe this dream implied that her time was not up yet?

2. Her other dream was about traveling with her family (her mother, sisters and brothers etc. Most of them had passed away.) to Shanghai. It looked like a merry event. They were gathering on the pier. The boat was about to leave. They hurried her on board. At this moment, she hesitated. What came to her mind was her husband being faraway. She felt that she should not leave him alone at home and she should enjoy herself. While she was thinking, the boat left. After a while she decided to join her mother. She went to enquire about when the next boat would be arriving. She was told that just now the boat was the last ferry and they told her to come back the following day. Again, this implied to her that she had just rubbed her shoulders with the God of Death?

3. A few days ago, she had a dream related to coal (which shares the same pronunciation with the word "unlucky" in Chinese). She was thinking what on earth would I need that for? We had the central heating system to keep us warm and we didn’t even have a stove. Coal was something totally useless. What should I do with that? She thought of her distant relative, an elderly lady who was not rich and still using a stove. "I should bring it to her, otherwise it will be wasted." She carried all the coal and walked towards her house and neatly piled it up for her. Not long after that, she was hospitalized. Her roommate was an elderly woman who had been diagnosed with a brain tumor and she was about to…..Such a coincidence?

九月的检查 / Sep's Check Up

妈妈从星期一开始又住院了，这次的主要任务是作全面检查，做帕米治疗，打胸腺肽以提高其免疫力。检查结果基本令人满意，医生说跟以前比起来基本上没什么变化，看起来基本已经趋于稳定了，由此说来，生存超过五年是有可能的。白血球仍然偏低，只有3900（正常为4000以上），血钙也偏低，为2.04（正常为2.15以上），两项与癌症相关的指标，一项从原来的48降低至38.5（正常为35以下），另一项有所增加，由原来的1100+增至1300+（正常为1000以下），其他肝，肾，脾等均正常。爸爸听后很受鼓舞，他激动地跟大家分享这一好消息，然而妈妈听了很不开心，毕竟她并不完全了解她的病情。

Mama has been hospitalized since this Monday. The main purpose was to have a complete check up and have another round of pamidronate disodium treatment, injection of thymosin α1 to improve her immune system. Now the results are out and basically encouraging. Her white blood cell level, 3900, was still a bit lower than required (normal value should be above 4000), her blood calcium level was 2.04 (normal should be above 2.15), one of her cancer index dropped from 48 to 38.5 (normal should be below 35), the other increased from 1100+ to 1300+. The rest like liver, kidney and spleen etc, were all normal. From her CT scan, doctors said it looked like her condition was already getting stabilized. "This result shows it’s quite possible that she may survive beyond 5 years" The chief said. Father was so much encouraged. He couldn’t help sharing the news with others. But mama was very unhappy. Anyway, she doesn't fully know about her conditions.

妈妈生日快乐 / Happy Birthday Mama

祝妈妈在新的一年里身体更健康!