两周年

到11月20日，妈妈做手术已经整整两周年了。这两年来我们经历了太多太多，妈妈也几次面临死亡的威胁。第一次是在去年的春节前后，她的心脏已出现房颤甚至室颤，医生拒绝为她作第二次的化疗，让我们回家等待，万般无奈之中，我们提出想吃Iressa（每片约S$100)，医生说这药没什么用，只不过是大款儿的安慰剂而已，但我们也想不出更好的办法，又不忍心看着她就这样去了，所以坚持要吃，吃了差不多两个月后，因为不能忍受其副作用，我们再次就诊，但奇怪的是她的心脏却好了很多，于是医生建议她继续化疗。就这样她开始了长达半年的化疗过程。与此同时，她的状况也越来越好，去年九月我去看她时她能还陪我一起去小白楼走一走。就在我们以为癌细胞已经被控制的时候，11月初她又发生了骨转移，治疗前，每天需吃10片止痛片，医生建议我们再度恢复吃Iressa，并作了直线离子加速器和帕米治疗，经过大约两个多月的疗程，再度摆脱了死神的纠缠。然而，在今年的九月，她再次发生心脏失控，且伴随有血压不稳，忽高忽低，除了心脏狂跳不止外，头也不停地晕，再度陷入了绝境。经过反复研究，我们发现Iressa这种药固然有它的抗癌作用，但如果连续使用超过6-8个月后便会失效。我们只能再次赌一把，把药换成Tarceva(每片约S$130), 现在暂时得到了控制，但她依然感觉气短，且咳嗽严重，然而心脏得到了很大的改善，也几乎不再头晕了。愿各路神仙都保佑我们！！！

Two years (20/11/09) passed after my mama's so called 'operation'. All of us suffered a lot since then. Mama even faced the threat of death several times. The first time occurred around last Chinese New Year. she started suffering more and more frequent atrial fibrillation and even ventricular fibrillation. Her doctors refused to do a second chemotherapy for her, due to her unstable heart condition and advised us to wait at home. We were so worried. We proposed to take Iressa (S$100/pill). But doctors said that medicine was not useful, it's simply a palliative measure for those that can afford. We insisted on taking it as we believed we must do whatever we could. After taking it for almost 2 months time, we went to consult her doctors again due to the unbearable side effects she was suffering. Fortunately at this time, her heart was back under control. So doctors performed chemotherapy again. Since then, we started half a year of treatment and she's getting better and better. In Sept, she was even able to accompany me to one of the shopping areas in Tianjin. In early Nov, when we thought everything was under control, her cancer had spread to her bone. She needed to take ten pain killer tablets including morphine. Doctors suggested her to take Iressa again, meanwhile, performimg linear particle accelerator and pamidronate disodium treatment on her. After more than 2 months of intense treatment, she once again said goodbye to Grim Reaper. However, this Sept her heart lost control again, her blood pressure became unstable. Not only was her heart beating irregularly, but her head also felt severely dizzy. Again, we were faced with the threat of death. After some careful research, we found that although Iressa was good for cancer treatment, it would lose it's effect after 6-8 months. So we decided to change to Tarceva (S$130/pill). Now she’s temporarily under the control again, though she still gets short of breath and occasional dizziness, nevertheless, her heart has improved tremendously. May all the gods bless us!